The other day I had an email from a friend about me screenwriting at 6 a.m. every morning. She said, “I admire your discipline. It must come from a deep passion.”
I thought, “Is this passion? Is this discipline? Is that what this is? That doesn’t quite feel right.”
Perhaps this is because I’ve struggled for so long to be clear about what I’m passionate about that the word “passion” has lost meaning for me.
Then, last week I found myself saying to my Writer’s Circle participants how you would have to fight me off with a sword to keep me from writing.
And I thought, “Huh! Passion.”
But the clincher was when I saw Jeanne Bowerman‘s tweet:
I knew my own answer was “No. Way.”
Then I got it. This is beyond reason, it’s beyond passion. It’s a kind of fierceness I never expected.
What shocks me is that this fierceness has been born out of the discipline of writing on a daily basis, not the other way around. And I hesitate to even call it discipline, because there are days when I have to drag myself out of bed with bribes and threats alike. The funny thing is that it’s gotten more scary NOT to write than TO write.
I didn’t know I would love writing like this. I had no idea until I started doing it regularly. Daily. At ungodly hours.
I’m also fascinated to have discovered that taking a day off or two DOES dwindle this feeling. I find myself drifting and uninspired when I stop.
But as long as I write every day or darn close to it, I’m good.
And I’m doing this by making it a LOT harder NOT to write than it is TO write:
- I set my clock early. If I don’t get up and write immediately, I’ll miss my chance before my husband goes to work and I’ve got kid duty.
- I set public goals with my Writer’s Circle EVERY DAY. And they notice if I don’t show up.
- I have assignments due every day for my ProSeries screenwriting class. And they’re counting to make sure we’re doing the assignments.
- I’m the coach for the Writer’s Circle too, so I have a responsibility as a role model too.
I’ve got multiple layers of accountability. Plus a healthy fear that if I stop writing, it’ll be hard to get started again. And a fierce belief that I’ve found my true calling.
What does this inspire for you? Let me know on the blog.
*** If you’d like to have this kind of daily accountability for yourself around your writing, join my “Just Do The Writing” Accountability Circle right now. Our next session starts on Monday, January 23rd, and Thursday, January 19th is the last day to register. If you do your part, it will blow your mind. http://JustDoTheWriting.com
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