I am a mass of contrasts and contradictions – a big shot and a sensitive soul, a hermit in the spotlight, a medieval sorceress in kick-ass sci fi garb, a tech geek and lover of the metaphysical and spiritual realms, and a big picture thinker who knows how to Get Things Done.
I love being “in” at home, and then there are times when I feel so limited and constrained that I just want to rip down the walls of my house to get out.
One of the constraints I’ve been wrestling with lately is being “too nice.” I’ve been “nice” for a long time.
It’s pretty boring.
I’ve been nice because I was told I should be.
I’ve been nice because I thought that’s what it meant to be spiritual. And a coach. And a coach for sensitive souls.
But I’ve also watered myself down in the process.
MYSELF.
Oops.
I’m less full of my selfness than I mean to be. I’m holding back and playing it safe.
I haven’t MEANT to hide or play it safe, exactly, but I have.
I’ve been hiding my critic’s eye, for fear of offending people.
I’ve been hiding expressing my real feelings about things publicly, like the times when I want to give up or the times I lose my way, or the times when I just plain old don’t agree with something someone I admire is doing.
The side effect of all this is that not only am I not sharing things I know will help you and me both, I’m also hold back the part of me that wants to kick ass, take names, tell the TRUTH, and get people into ACTION. Intuitive action — action based in deep inner wisdom and inner guidance — but action nonetheless.
So, I know you’ve seen me doing this already, but I wanted to tell you a little bit more about WHY I’m aiming to embrace my messy, delicious, complicated self so publicly, and how I’m hoping to inspire YOU to do the same. The more real we each are, the more full of our selfness, the more truthful and real and whole the world can become.
What part of yourself are you ready to express more fully?
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What’s Jenna Up To?
~> March 15th, 2011. My Artist’s Way Accountability & Support Group continues. Details.
~> March 26th, 2011. First broadcast of my brand new Radio Lightworker radio show on “Dreamification.” Find out more and submit your questions.
~> April 29th & 30th, 2011. My next Voice Your Vision retreat will be held in Berkeley, California. Early registration is now available. Special savings if you’ve already had your hands analyzed.
